I was smarter than this disease. I wish I could somehow know what it was doing. I wish this disease was like math and had an answer. If this, then that.
But it doesn't.
I feel like I'm at war; at war with an enemy far more intelligent, far more advanced than me. Nothing about this arrogant enemy is predictable. Nothing about it is fair or humane. There is no Geneva Convention with this disease.
After a week of amazingly good numbers and no spikes or dips even at karate camp, Sain is high. Not an "oh, she's running a bit high." No, she's HIGH and I can't get her to stay down. We've done set changes, insulin changes, everything -- 20 + units of correction alone yesterday with precious little results.
Maybe it was a mistake letting her go to a birthday party after getting sick at class; maybe I shouldn't have tried to be somewhat social while mapping out strategies of our next move in my head. But I couldn't let it win -- not yesterday. Yesterday we had to pretend to be normal.
My wish for today -- no ketones and that somehow the correction I gave Sain at 4 am is working and that when I go in the living room to check (camp outs in the living room are one of our "sick day" traditions) there are double down arrows from the sensor!
About Me
- Angie
- Seattle, Washington, United States
- I'm not that interesting -- I'd rather talk about other people. But if you must know -- I am a mom, a daughter, and a die-hard Leafs fan. I would give anything (and yes I mean anything) to cure my daughter. My kids are my life -- everyone knows that -- but as a mom I've tried to stay true to me. When all her friends were describing their moms I heard Sain sum me up pretty well, "My mom is a grown up skater chick."
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3 comments:
I'm battling stubborn highs lately too. Was up multiple times last night doing checks and corrections with precious little results. I have a similar wish list.
I hope all your wishes for that day came true. We are dealing with some 'highs' too... quite frankly seeming left field and all to common right now. I am trying different things like keeping J more hydrated in this heat, and well.. I too have similar wishes and hope for all of us.. they come true.
I have a call into the endo to see if we should be making more changes to settings.. I just always hate to mess with what was once working, even though it does not work today, you never know about tomorrow...
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